Why Would I share Such a personal thing……
I was asked the question recently, “why in the hell would you share such personal information on the web? “ I guess that’s a fair question.
In many ways, I am a very private person and in other areas, I’m not. I have always admired a person that can talk about something awful and troubling in their life with a friend. It has taken me many long years and a lot of introspection to be able to talk about things I may be uncomfortable with. I found out many years ago that talking about things can take the sting and venom out of a bad experience. In my life, I’ve had the misfortune to have experienced some awful things, things that keep you up at night and affect the way you deal with others and life. Talking about these things have allowed me to let go of some of the ghosts that come from holding in bad things. Yes, I’m talking about “therapy”. However, therapy takes many forms. There are the Doctors and the couch and “how do feel about that”, but what does me the most good is talking to a trusted friend and sifting through the ashes of bad decisions and the bumps in life’s road. I’m lucky to have a few very good friends and a lot of good friends who are for the most part just as out of kilter as I am, so we get one another.
That is sort of what this blog is. What it is not is, a baring of my soul, a pity party, a chance to pass my baggage off to you or a “how to” story. This is me working through a very scary part of my life and writing this down helps me keep the fact I have cancer and the only way to beat it is to fight it and keep it in the front of my mind until every shred of this insidious killer disease has left my body.
Yes, this a very personal journey, one you may not want to follow. That’s fine. I get it. If you want to come along, I’m grateful. All I ask for is honest feedback and your support.
I have been reading several blogs lately written by folks that are battling various forms of cancer or have beaten it and a few who have lost the race and are making the most of their time left. All these blogs have different purposes. Some are Snake Oil salesmen with all the remedies and answers. Some are touting new age techniques of crystals and herbs. Most are like mine, describing a journey and are trying to see around that next corner. They all have their purpose to the authors and I wish them all the best of luck and I hope they get what they are looking to get from the experience.
I don’t know what where this blog will go. I do know that I’m going to follow it to the end. Documenting the course I will follow and fighting it tooth and nail.
As I mentioned in my initial emails, if you’re here that means I consider you a member of my family or extended family. Some of you have known me all my life, some only a few years. Some linked to me by blood, some by shared philosophies and some are linked by hydraulic fluid, jet fuel, and salt water. No matter the link or connection you are a part of my life.
I suspect I over-answered the question as usual.
Here is the bottom line as of 10-07-2018
Squamous Cell Carcinoma of the Throat
The tumor is 5 CM and Stage II
Treatment starts 10-29-2018 (my choice)(no change)
Thanks for reading and I hope to see you here again.